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Freak inside of you
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Submitted by EuroMan on Sunday - July 2, 2006
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By the time you’re done reading this you’ll probably think that I’m one sick and twisted freak. You might be right. However, only by having those dirty, filthy and twisted thoughts, like the ones in my head, you will ever have a shot at great sex. Otherwise, you sex life will sooner or later be reduced to a once-a-week quickie in a missionary position just barely fitting it into your schedule between watching the rerun of “Friends” and walking your dog. Freaks are the artists of sex. They think of the most creative and genius ways to excite one’s sexuality and they are good at it.
I used to think that everybody loved sex. But I was wrong. Turned out most people don’t. They like it, but don’t LOVE IT. For most people sex is on the same level of necessity as shopping or watching TV – they do it when they need or want it, but don’t put too much effort or excitement into it. They don’t look for it too hard and if they find it – they don’t need it to be anything more than a simple way to get off. For them - it’s a simple release of a physical need.
People who LOVE sex, however, have more than a physical need. Their needs are also must be met on a psychological level. They need their orgasms to be a piece of art and everything that leads up to them has to be a carefully crafted journey.
I feel sorry for those who do not take advantage of the pleasure that human sexuality can bring to them. It’s like buying a Mercedes-Benz and then keeping it in the garage for the rest of its lease. I know that many people have their own reasons for never developing their sexual appetite or creativity – some have been suppressed by their culture or religion or upbringing, and some have just never been put in a situation where they could explore or learn about their sexuality. But, for crying out loud, people – don’t you ever get horny out of your mind? If not – shouldn’t it be a medical condition? I mean isn’t it possible that some people just don’t have enough hormones in their blood stream to get horny enough? Shouldn’t that be treated?
Every one of us has a freak hidden somewhere deep inside. Some have it murdered by suffocation and nothing will help them bring it back. Some have found it, woke it up and started having the best sex of their lives. And others don’t even know it exists. They may never find out about it, or they may never figure out how to bring it out of them. But those are the people who still have hope for the best sex they’ve ever had in their entire miserable lives.
I’ll give you a great example from my own experience. About a year ago I have met a nice conservative Chinese girl who at the age of 25 has only had sex with only one guy. No, not one guy in that particular year – I mean EVER! Usually what attracts a nice girl like her to a perverted freak like me is the fact that I’m so much the opposite of what she ever thought about sex that she just has to try it. Have you ever seen a Discovery channel where mother bird calls loudly to its unborn hatchlings to wake them up so they can break through their eggs’ shells to see the light? Much like that, the freak inside of her started to wake up as my “voice” ( or whatever the kids are calling it these days ) has started to reach deep down in her sexually repressed mind.
She turned out to be amazing in bed. Besides the fact she had a great body, she was really into it. I wasn’t fucking her – she was fucking me! She was so into it that even with all of my house windows closed – we were still afraid that neighbor will call police reporting domestic violence in progress. Man, she was loud! We fucked everywhere! In my house, in my car, on an empty parking lot, in bathrooms at parties – I mean everywhere! We have gone like this for about half a year. And even though the sex was great I felt like she was still holding back. She would still be too embarrassed to talk dirty to me, and she was still a little tame at times. I kept asking her if there were any fantasies and desires that she would like us to explore to have her totally let go and have the best sex she could possibly have. However, she kept insisting that this was the best it could ever be for her!
I was not convinced. I have not seen that freak make its way completely out of her and I was right. One night when we were fucking like there was no tomorrow I have decided to use a trick that I used in the past to see if a girl has complete trust in me while we’re in bed. What I do is at one point I hold her down with my hand by the chest. Most girls like that. But then my hand starts sliding up and ends up almost on her neck. If a girl still doesn’t feel too comfortable with you – she’ll let you do that but will put her hand over yours, so she can still control your movement as your hand is very close to such vulnerable area as the neck. ( You have to be careful with girls who have been rape or abuse victims – never hold them down in any way – that brings up some fucked up memories and it’s all over! ). This girl had no problem with me doing that and as my hand made its way to her neck she threw her hands up in total submission. Usually that’s the end of the test and we return to the regularly scheduled fucking.
However, this girl had an emergency broadcast system test of her own. Before I had a chance to slide my hand back down to her chest she said something that I wasn’t prepared to hear: “Choke me, baby!”. “What?” I asked in shock. “Choke me. Just a little, OK?”. I was weirded out but decided to do what she asked. I pinned her down by her neck gently but with some pressure. And, oh my God! The freak was out! A girl who has never said a word during sex no matter how much I begged her started dishing out the filthiest dirty talk I’ve ever heard. “Pump my wet pussy like a slut that I am!”, she screamed. I was as much excited as I was surprised. We ended up having the roughest sex I’ve ever had with me choking her, grabbing her by her hair and shoving her face into the bed while a stream of filthiest and at the same time sexiest dirty talk was pouring out of her mouth. She came so hard that she lost her hearing for about fifteen minutes and couldn’t hear what I was saying to her. She also got so weak in her knees that she fell right on her ass as she tried to get off the bed to go to the kitchen to get something to drink.
Now how the hell did all this happen? Did she have no clue that this kind of sex ( which is basically a rape fantasy role playing ) was her thing? Was some brain cell that had this fantasy bottling up inside of it never activated? Was that not on a list of all the dirtiest and filthiest things that I’ve proposed we do in bed? I asked her these questions and she said “no” to all of them. I guess it took an accidental and unrelated move on my part to trigger something deep inside of her to come out on the surface and explode in this unpredictable fetish.
So, if a good conservative Chinese girl can dig out her rape fantasy and have the mind blowing ( almost literary ) orgasms as a result of it, do you think you may want to search for that freak inside of you just to see if it’s still alive? I have found mine!
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By: urpersuasion (Female) on Tuesday - October 24, 2006
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To each, his/her own. I do agree with pulling the freak out. It doesn't always mean that bringing the freak out includes pain or something that scares society. I think it is a frame of mind. With certain partners I can be a lady on the streets and a total freak in the bedroom.. Then there are partners that I had chemistry with and the sex was fine, but there was a limit on what I did with and around them. I have found that the more you feel and the more you trust the easier it is to bring the freak out. I ran onto my freaky side and it isn't anything painful. It is however awesome for all involved. Things don't always have to be nasty, dirty, scarey or painful to be freaky......
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By: fotoMOJO (Male) on Thursday - October 19, 2006
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Why do you have to use tricks to see if a girl trusts you? That's kinda odd. I remember reading this a couple of years ago when you sent it to me as a preview to an online project you were writing and thinking to myself, "damn this guy thinks he's kinky. Well to each his own" It's kinda like your reference to other people, when you put them down for thinking they're kinky for fucking with the lights on or buying a second dildo. I'm not sure why, but you seem to have a real chip on your shoulder about wanting to prove that you are "one freaky son of a bitch" and the rest of us "poor, miserable bastards" need to take a lesson from you or something. I dare you to try a night at the Citadel on for size. Your writing makes you sound like you're trying REALLY REALLY hard to sound like Buttman or some overly animated, porn producer.
Anyway, just an observation.
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By: bicurious916 (Female) on Saturday - August 26, 2006
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I have a personal experience that is similar, not quite as dramatic though. I've always been open to new things, but when asked I can't think of a particular "fantasy". One day in the middle of sex my boyfriend grabbed my hair and pulled it back while giving him head, I nearly came. That was it, I would have never thought that I would be turned on by having my hair pulled-but it's true...it gets me every time. Sometimes you just need to experience new things in order to find ones that you enjoy. If he had never tried that, I would never had known..how sad that would be!
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By: alphanorth on Saturday - July 29, 2006
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Study her mind. It will always show the way in. Study yours, it will show you the way out.
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By: mykelzbusy on Friday - July 21, 2006
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Well put. I also am of the belief that sex falls under many levels, and not a mure necessity. Sometimes for stress relief, sometimes to calibrate the brain and soul, and sometimes just for the mure electric energy it provides. It is all about chemistry and desire. I try to add something different every time I have sex. It is amazing what I have found. But I am the kind of guy who has to find and try every switch, dial, display, and knob of a high-end sports car. This is not to say I can not enjoy the serenity and peacefullness of a nice stereo system and take things slowly, finishing only moments before the sun begins to rise in the morning. Sex is about experimentation, practice, and the strive for perfection. It is an art, a passion, an expression, and far more than a necessity of life. Sometimes it takes the perceptions and expressions of another to bring our own spirit to life.
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By: robkay (Male) on Monday - July 17, 2006
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I enjoyed your blog,from your point of view, love to hear hers too. However, it could be any woman,not just chinese or man for that matter.I don't mean to be politically correct either
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By: EuroMan (Male) on Sunday - July 16, 2006
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How's my blog insulting?
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By: shazaam on Sunday - July 16, 2006
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Kinda odd that responses can't be rude, slanderous or insulting but the blog itself can be.........just making an observation...
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